Sunday, January 17, 2016

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For some reason life has become stressful. Even the thought of sleeping is stressful. Can I wake up on time for school? Can I go to bed at the right time and not stay up for three hours staring at the ceiling? Will today be the day I wake up on time and not feel like crap? When do I get my alarm clock working? At what time do I have to wake up to feel like there are enough hours in the day?  When will people stop telling me to go to bed earlier as if it's an easy task? WHEN WILL I STOP BEING STRESSED ABOUT SLEEPING?

I want to do something fun other than just spending my life on the computer. I try to think of fun things but nothing interests me. I want to travel the world, save lives, find lost treasure, fight dragons, keep dragons as pets. I read too many books, watch too many movies. I'm not a hero, I'm a girl in middle school who likes to play video games.

I feel like wearing whatever is in the back of my closet no longer suits me. I want to change my look. I look scary in makeup, I am too lazy to try "10 second hairstyles for lazy girls" because you need the new "Tresemme super-hair-holder" or something, and I hate shopping.Grrr.

I feel as though I am empty sad confused irritated stressed a teenager I don't know.

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  1. I hear you. I also think your writing ability makes you a superhero. So there.

    I remember that moment I realized life would never be like that in my books... *sigh*... but real life has its perks, and you can still run away into a novel of your own choosing (or your own making), any time you want. :)

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  2. I hear you. I also think your writing ability makes you a superhero. So there.

    I remember that moment I realized life would never be like that in my books... *sigh*... but real life has its perks, and you can still run away into a novel of your own choosing (or your own making), any time you want. :)

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  4. Sometimes finding a productive path for oneself can be lonely, and it can be challenging to even know what help to ask for and/or to accept whatever support is given. But still, the act of asking changes the energy of finding your path completely, from angsting to inquiring, from frustration to curiosity. Here for you . . . Dad

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  5. Sometimes finding a productive path for oneself can be lonely, and it can be challenging to even know what help to ask for and/or to accept whatever support is given. But still, the act of asking changes the energy of finding your path completely, from angsting to inquiring, from frustration to curiosity. Here for you . . . Dad

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  6. Sometimes finding a productive path for oneself can be lonely, and it can be challenging to even know what help to ask for and/or to accept whatever support is given. But still, the act of asking changes the energy of finding your path completely, from angsting to inquiring, from frustration to curiosity. Here for you . . . Dad

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  7. I know exactly how you feel. You are not alone.
    -Zoe

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  8. Ahna you are Definitely not alone i know you do not believe me but you are not I promise you. But will there be a day were i do not end up on the floor crying or staying up for 4 hours just staring at my ceiling i also hate it when people tell me to go to bead earlier they act like its as easy as eating 4 tubs of gelato. also i will always have your back. fell free to talk to me about any thing any time.

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