I'm Not Dead, Just Busy.

Hello!
It has been a really long time since I posted something, but that is because I started a YouTube channel. Two of them actually!
Here is the link to one of my videos:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjthhuDUDVE

From now on, most of the things I would write about on this blog will be made into vlogs on my personal channel (My personal channel is called Sprinklekitty.)

 I also made a channel with my dad, known as Kitty8Frog. Feel free to check it out: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCHdxNp5LVyVJhdPsionwDjA

Thanks for reading,
Ahna

To Kill A Mockingbird

So I have been reading To Kill a Mockingbird recently and today's chapter was about the main character's aunt coming to live with them. Little did I know that we would be having a guest stay at our house. While our guest will probably not ridicule me, she reminds me somewhat of the aunt. Life works in some very strange ways. I really don't have much to say about this topic, it was kind of short but I hope you like it.

Snow

I found it hard to believe that snowflakes are all unique. I ponder the thought that maybe each one has a different personality or trait. They could be like the Emoto Water Crystal study. What if every snowflake has a special word to go along with it. What if its pattern depended on how many times someone consumed it as water. I mean, think about it, you are drinking the same water as the dinosaurs. Anyway, I wrote a poem (sort of) about winter.

The wind is blowing,
the snow is dancing,
the trees are singing,
the animals are sleeping.

The world is cold and Winter's here,
the cocoa mugs are held close,
the window panes are all fogged up,
the snow is flying through the air.

The fire is lit,
the doors are closed,
the people huddled,
unique like snowflakes,
all of them.

Post

For some reason life has become stressful. Even the thought of sleeping is stressful. Can I wake up on time for school? Can I go to bed at the right time and not stay up for three hours staring at the ceiling? Will today be the day I wake up on time and not feel like crap? When do I get my alarm clock working? At what time do I have to wake up to feel like there are enough hours in the day?  When will people stop telling me to go to bed earlier as if it's an easy task? WHEN WILL I STOP BEING STRESSED ABOUT SLEEPING?

I want to do something fun other than just spending my life on the computer. I try to think of fun things but nothing interests me. I want to travel the world, save lives, find lost treasure, fight dragons, keep dragons as pets. I read too many books, watch too many movies. I'm not a hero, I'm a girl in middle school who likes to play video games.

I feel like wearing whatever is in the back of my closet no longer suits me. I want to change my look. I look scary in makeup, I am too lazy to try "10 second hairstyles for lazy girls" because you need the new "Tresemme super-hair-holder" or something, and I hate shopping.Grrr.

I feel as though I am empty sad confused irritated stressed a teenager I don't know.